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kohikari ([personal profile] kohikari) wrote2010-11-10 06:26 am
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[/totally useless musing]

It occurred to me today (or recurred; my thoughts and ideas tend to do that, come and go in successive waves of forgetting and remembrance) that people aren't really allowed to be miserable in public.  I mean, they can, it's just that it will disturb others around them and cause random strangers and/or acquaintances to Become Concerned and inquire as to your Wellbeing and be generally intrusive and unwantedly helpful.  And when someone wants to help, and help is not wanted, you've sort of denied them the altruistic rush of having been ~Charitable~ and ~Touching the Lives of Others~ and it's really not appreciated on their part; thus everyone ends up unhappy(er).   So, if you want to be left alone and have an emotion out in peace, you're generally expected to find a private place where no one will notice you.  It seems a little unfair to the person involved, but on the other hand it points to the general nosy benevolence of modern human society, so I suppose that's a good thing.  And/or they find it distracting/embarrassing/annoying and just want you to stop, whichever.

(read: had a bit of an off day and seriously considered having a good cry but (a) I'd have to go out of my way to find a comfy corner somewhere so as not to draw undue attention and (b) I don't think I'm actually capable of having a 'good cry' (though I've heard the phenomenon has been observed in some vertebrates) and (c) it didn't really fit into my schedule at the time so I decided the option was impractical and went on my way.  um.  and then, as always happens when I find myself awake at odd hours, I suddenly became eloquent.  well, more eloquent than I am normally, at least...  so, er, tadahhh?)

I am TOTALLY GOING TO DO MY HOMEWORK NOW.   :D


[[ edit twelve hours later: ...that was a lie.  however, I went to all my classes and am now registered for all of my spring courses INCLUDING the closed Friday-afternoon Organic Chem lab, sooo I mark today as productive.  my standards at this point are kind of pathetic. ]]